What is happening?

It’s Laura.

It’s been a while since I’ve written anything here. It’s Thanksgiving Break. It’s actually Black Friday. Time for some reflecting on my part.

I’m exhausted. Mentally. I think about my students at various times of the day. I think about the teachers I work with (and used to work with) at various times of the day. I think about all the books in my TBR pile (well, piles, actually) that I WANT to read but just don’t have the mental capacity to pick up and read. I want to learn. I need to learn. It’s part of my DNA. I guess I just realized that it’s NOT a part of everyone’s DNA (or is it?) to WANT to learn. Are we born to learn? We must be, right? We learn how to walk and talk, how to feed and dress ourselves, how to do everything we do on this earth, right? So why aren’t my students learning? Why don’t many of the teachers I work with (or have worked with) WANT to learn better ways to teach their students or know their content better? Okay. I’m going to go to a judgment-free zone.

I know that we all have lives. I know that I cannot walk in someone else’s shoes. I know that we are all in different stages of our lives. I know that I am in a stage in my life where, if I wanted to, I could pick up and go anywhere in this world pretty much at a moment’s notice. I could also sit and read all day. I could start writing that book that I’ve always wanted to write (and have thought about doing for over thirty years). So why am I not doing any of these things? I’m too mentally exhausted. I finished listening to the audio book of “The Anxious Generation.” I am so fired up now about getting kids away from their screens. I think this is adding to my mental exhaustion. I want to talk about this a lot more, but I can’t right now. I need to do some work for school, wrap presents, do laundry, empty the dishwasher, etc. which means I’m probably going to sit in my recliner and watch tv.

I hope everyone had a wonderful Thanksgiving! I am so grateful for my family and my Mathy Friends!

Hugs!